The Day After Tomorrow

Greetings to all of you. May you have a nice day ahead of you. Over the past few years, I have stumbled down a path of self-hatred. I be...


Greetings to all of you. May you have a nice day ahead of you. Over the past few years, I have stumbled down a path of self-hatred. I became someone who could not depend on herself, someone who was self-deprecating and someone who could not even look in the mirror and tell herself that she is good enough and the fact that she do not have to worry about other matters. I had periods of time where I would not leave my bed and I would not interact with people. I began to let myself down mentally and physically until I became a burnt out version of who I used to be.

I knew that something needed to change, going through my days self-loathing was negatively affecting every aspect of my life. Learning to love myself is not something that happens overnight. It is a daily reminder, it is looking in the mirror and liking what I see, it is being content with my own company. I am learning what makes me happy and who I want to be in my future.

Thoughts on self-love?

Self-love is always preached about, but no one ever tells you how difficult it can be. I am here to tell anyone that it is okay that you are still learning to love yourself. We are constantly growing and changing and we will begin to love different parts of ourselves as we discover them.

So you do not love yourself faithfully yet? It is okay, but you have to know this; one day you will. You are going to love yourself one day but until then, keep playing your favorite song and dancing to some songs around in your room. Do not worry about anything. Take the good days over the bad ones and know you will get to where you want to be soon enough.

First of all, I want you to know that you are not alone. I am also one of the many girls out there who fell into society's trap of feeling less than perfect. I was so desperate to find acceptance that I forgot to love myself for the quirky and weird of a person that I am and recognize my self-worth. I know what it is like to look at a magazine or any social media page and compare myself to the girls who I thought were "perfect" or better than me. 

Here is the thing - to the girls who need to love who they are, I dedicate this one to you. I hope that by hearing the words that I wish I would have heard years ago, will help you learn to love yourself the way you should.

Here is to the girls who are still learning what it means to be loved. The girls who had to learn everything on their own. The girls who had to learn everything the hard way. The girls who had no one else by their side when they were in trouble. Here is to the girls who understood loneliness a lot sooner than they should. The girls who had to start over because their lives kept falling apart. The girls who moved to more than one city to find themselves. The girls who had to fight for their voice. Here is to the girls who had to survive. The ones who learned to stand up for themselves time and time again.

When you're different, sometimes you do not see the millions of people who accept you for what you are, all you notice is the person who does not” ― Jodi Picoult, Change of Heart

And lastly,

Here is to the girls who are afraid of love yet they do not want to give up on it. They know it is there. They know it will find them. Here is to the girls who are still learning that they are beautiful and strong and they deserve to be loved. Here is to the girls who believe in miracles and are waiting for their own. Have a good day.



Love, Syfka

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  1. Thank you so much for this wonderful beautiful words. It just what I have always need - To start learning to love myself after years full of heartbroken and feeling unworthy. Thank you! :)

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    1. My pleasure, I am glad that this post can encourage you to love yourself more, after all in the end of the day, it is just about yourself, have a good day!

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