Be Stronger Than Before

Greetings to all of you. May you have a nice day ahead. I am back, for goodness sake how long it was since the last time I wrote some ne...

Greetings to all of you. May you have a nice day ahead. I am back, for goodness sake how long it was since the last time I wrote some new posts here. So, final examination will be commenced in 6 days span of time, talking about preparation and stuffs, I just want to do my best. It stumbled me that these past few days, seems like things are all miserable for me. I am trying to handle and cope with everything in the present, for the time being.


I have never liked someone this much. Well, I was never his girlfriend, but I love the way he treated me. For someone who has never has a relationship in her life, that would be special. Guess, you can call that catching feelings. Obviously, I can say that I am the type of girl who gives it all you have got all the time. Guess what I can say, I really like him but maybe things are not meant to be. Our bond of friendship still lives for it. I hope he is well and is living his life the way he wants.

I do get my hopes up when someone like him comes along, but I always hit a wall. But, I am thankful for all those things, short and brief memories that I have with him, I really appreciate it. I am thankful for the time that I spent with him because it gave me a glimpse of what I deserve and my worth. I learned what it felt like to have your heart beat faster with each step he took towards you. I learned how it feels to have someone make your face light up just by stepping into the same room.

But you know one thing - one day, someone will walk into your life and say everything you wished he had said to you. He will walk into your life and he will tell you that you are the most beautiful girl he has ever seen. He will tell you that your smile brightens his world. He would not text you just to see if you will reply his texts, he will pick up the phone and call you just to tell you he is thinking about you and asking about how your days were.

And now here I am, writing a post of how I feel, in a state of myself I can say that I am doing just fine. Well, there are other important priorities that I should radiate my focus on. But this person has left me feeling like I will never love again, and I am afraid that it will feel like that forever. But I am gonna take my time to heal myself because I believe, time heals everything. I believe that will I be able to love again, someday. I realize that now is not the time for me to think about those things. I want to grow myself and become the better version of myself whom I desire to be.

" The best way to heal a broken heart is to find a way to move past the hurt " - Mary Kay Andrews

In the meantime, as it has gone worldwide about this shocking news of Jonghyun's death, I would like to say that I have been a fan of his songs for a long time. All of his songs are different and unique in a way, a shout out to The Collection album, all of the songs in there are the true gems. I was so shocked when I found out about his sudden death and his depression, I never knew about that. Sometime the happiest person hides the saddest stories that we will never know. To Jonghyun, you did well. Just remember this, someone loves you more than you love yourself. Be happy and rest in peace. 

Love, Syfka