Reflection of Myself

Greetings to all of you. I wish you are in a good health. What has you been up to lately? I have nothing much to update, classes are goi...


Greetings to all of you. I wish you are in a good health. What has you been up to lately? I have nothing much to update, classes are going on as usual, assignments are adding up every weeks and just hanging on there, trying to cope with everything. I tried to update this blog as much as I could but being a student, time constraints. Enough with redundancy. 

It is time for a reflection

Guess what, I will be turning 20 soon in October later this year. Pretty much a big deal, I guess. Entering into a new phase of life, an adult life. The truth is, I am still a child at heart. Wishing that I would be granted with no responsibilities and no life problems, but I am growing up each time passes. I have gone through a huge evolution in thoughts with future career, passions and directions in life that I will be go through in the next few years of my life.

I am sure there will be days when I will still feel stuck between being a lost teen, and being a mature young lady. There will be days when I would start to question my actions “am I doing the right thing?” “am I acting appropriately my age?” or maybe “am I making the right decisions for my age?” I was having a major case of cognitive dissonance between what I wanted my life to be and the options I see. I was afraid to admit what I really wanted. I was kinda afraid of it, actually. 

But now, I think I am not afraid anymore. I dont want to worry that I am suck at meeting someone else’s standards, and as a result, might not be able to keep supporting myself. I do not want to be forced to stay in a specific location and never get away because I have to clock in somewhere. I would love to spend my life traveling, learning languages, reading, writing, helping and motivate people and eating good food and be an independent young lady with visions in mind.

But know this one thing

Many people have the thinking that you have to find yourself by the time you reach your twenties. Well that may be partially true but, you can spend your childhood thinking about your dream career, and you can spend your teen years gaining experience for the future, but that does not mean that you will be able to figure everything out by your twentieth birthday.

My mom used to said to me that actually your twenties is actually the best period of time in your life to find out who you really are and who you want to be. Whether you are a college student, college graduate, or are going in a different route, you are at a very important age in life. You are on the verge of adulthood and anything is possible. I guess I can say that being in 20-something is wild ride. But, this are also what I have learnt so far in life;

Cherish meaningful relationships
You are at an age where you’re finally finding true friendships and relationships. If you have people in your life who truly care about you, this support system will back you up whenever you find yourself falling. 

Do not feel rushed to do anything
Make your own rules and set your own standards. You have to understand that it is perfectly okay if you are not doing exactly what you want to do yet. Do not feel rushed.

Be open-minded
Always be up to try new things in life, whether they work out or not. You learned at an early age that if you dont try something, you will never know what it feels like. If you go for anything and everything, you will not only gain experiences, but you also might find something new that you like.

Another thing you should realize is that a part of finding yourself is creating yourself. You create yourself through both your positive and negative experiences, through your successes, your weaknesses and your mistakes, and through your happiest times and your darkest times.

The process of finding yourself can be quite terrifying. Lets face it, the phase of growing up would be boring as hell if you already had everything you want in life. So enjoy the ride and endure the crashes along the way, it will be worth it eventually.



Love, Syfka

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